's so that works, I know, but every time it happens I can not stay not hurt: her friends get engaged, and have more time, you begin to exist only in the holes they have, the your problems do not exist, and they ask you how are you a thousand times, but do not have time to take care of you. How it works, always. And yet ... and yet now I feel a strong lack of it, as long as she dedicated care, the kindness, the smiles, made me feel good, I'm distracted, I did not think, take care of her was how to take care of myself . And now they do not spend weeks an afternoon together, because if it is to work with her. Now I just plug her holes, time, character, mental. I have much more time for me, but honestly I do not know what to do, I have a lot more energy than I can carry it anywhere, so I end up unloading alone. And 'the way it works, I have to do with reason. And I do not understand why the wheel does not turn anything, because it never turns to me. And I feel so damn pathetic to even think of these things, I would just want to stay at home and watch movies, drink beer and rolled cigarettes. Stupid, stupid, pathetic little girl.
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